It happens so quickly and it doesn't give you a sign. As the bible had been quoted so much several times, "For yourselves know perfectly that the day of the Lord so cometh as a thief in the night” (1 Thess. 5:2)". This is the only consolation I have now as I see my mother's body being carried away to a place I know not where. Although there are uncertainties of such destination, I know, for a fact, that she is now gladly in the hands of her Maker; in the hands of our Maker. Sadness strikes and that's a fact, but all the more should we be happy to let her go and to let her unload her physical burdens. She, having seen her struggles, is the most deserving of the rest she has been offered now.
I believe that God has His reasons, and such reasons are beyond the reach of His children for now. The time will come that we will be reunited again, as the sun sets in the eve of the day to come when we all will see the Lord. It may be tomorrow, tonight, next month, the month after that or even at a time we least expect it; but it will come.
We will be left by our mothers, our fathers, our siblings and our children; but it will not be forever. As forever will come, so shall our Lord. That is the very reason we shall rejoice. Surely we will be sad in the passing of time, when the ones we loved have seemingly left us out of awe, but we will meet again someday. We will be sad, as we would continue to miss them, that is the truth; and we ache for the hugs that we verily took for granted in the times that they were around; but rest assured, living will not be in vain; as their deaths are not.
We cry with tears of longing, we cry with tears of joy, we cry with tears of loss, but never with tears of misery and despair. We cry because we miss them, we cry because we care, we cry because we love them; but never because we think we'd never see them again.
See you soon, my love. See you soon Maming. And when we meet, I will be the best person I can present to you and I know you will be proud of me and we four will be happily together again; with no worries, no heartaches and no sadness. We love you so much Maming. Be happy for we will wait for you, as you also wait for us.
I love you Ming!
I wonder still why I'm here when all the while I could not even get satisfied with my own performance. Why am I still here? Tell if it isn't so, so I could stop ahead of time. I plead wiht my whole soul as it is too burdensome to even think about. Please give me a reason to stay. Please give me reason to find myself within this supposedly deceased childhood dream.
That's exactly what I've been thinking after this week is over. The first day isn't that bad; the series and movies are helping out a lot... And the butterscotch whiskey, vodka and lager beer, altogether. But what happens if all of those are gone? I don't have money for all of that everyday. I still miss him the minute I don't do anything; the minute I give myself the chance to think. Who am I kidding? He's my world, and he doesn't miss me one bit; and it hurts so bad.
Author
- Cybil
- I have a tendency to exhibit expansive euphoria when I am stressed out or depressed. I'm always ready to smile even if I'm already tired. I love to make movies, where I am the actress, as well as part of the production team. I have a great passion for Film Making where I I have the role of actress... :)