Changing never felt so scary. (sigh) Some crazy thoughts just come into your mind when you desire to be better not only for yourself, but also for people who matter most to you. You might not get the result you so hope to get, but at least you became better, saving all the selfishness because you're actually doing it not only for yourself, but for people you love.

It's scary, in a way, that you know that you could never go back to the past; and that you could never take back any of the changes that you've made, and all the promises that you dedicated yourself to do. It's scary because there is a very big chance that you could even lose yourself in the process. What's more challenging, though, is retaining that very essence of why one wants to change, and still love in the process of that change. The challenge is to change nothing at all while changing for the better; having the old heart and the old self, yet become better for the future.