I've been in our house almost 3 months now. I haven't been able to get any calls from the jobs I applied for. Am I only waiting in vain? I really want to get a job now. I want to earn so that I could start with my plans in life, so that I could start putting my fate into my own hands, if you know what I mean. I'm tired of waiting for my aunt's call for us to go to Cebu. How long should we wait? If ever I'd get any calls from the companies I've applied in, unfortunately I still couldn't go that easily because I need to accompany my mom to Cebu. I'm hoping that they'd call right after we've gone to Cebu so that my plans would be 거침없었어. I just hope we'd go to Cebu as soon as possible so that I could concentrate on looking for a job.

I don't want to leave my family, but I just want to decide on my own for once. Yes, I've always been in charge of my decision, but I'd like to do whatever I want and what I ought to do without worrying anyone. I'm sick of people getting worried of me while I'm having the time of my life. It just wouldn't be completely enjpyable that way wouldn't it? It's not really the chores that bugs be, but the overness of the worrying. I've hated it for so long.

And I just want to be happy with who I want to be, and not just follow the desires of my parents, I want to be happy, not only because their happy of what I've become in their eyes, but I want myself to be completely happy about what I'm supposed to become. Yes, I still want to be an actress. I can't stop wanting to be.