I'm at the verge of destroying myself, I guess. I keep finding myself off the feeling, but in some instances I realize that I'm into such feeling again. How long do I need to see myself in such uncertainties? How long do I need to cry secretly so that I could let myself see that you are really not coming back to the one I knew before. I so want to quit now, but I find myself still searching for you in the instances I remember you. I so want to be bitter with you now, but I just can't be. All I want to do now is get away from it all and find a way to divert my life somehow, without you in the picture. But how?